Excited yet??

I get on Facebook and all I see are statuses counting down days till college. Some of my friends have already moved in, or are moving in tomorrow. I feel like I should be more excited than I am. If you were to have asked me a year ago if I were excited for college I would have said yes. But it seems ever since the process, applications, financial aid, scholarships, and everything else, it just seems to have brought the enthusiasm to a low.

I get people, mostly adults, asking me if I'm looking forward to college. I never know what to say, and I know the answer should be yes but usually I just answer with: "Uh, yeah, I suppose so". I'm not not looking forward to it, but I'm also not posting a countdown as my status. I almost feel like I have absolutely no emotion on the subject, as if I've used up all of my energy just to get to this point.

I am in no way taking this opportunity for granted. I worked hard to get myself to this point, and the only reason I can even partially afford college is because I strained my ass to get scholarships. I guess I'm not animated about leaving because I know that this is just the beginning of the momentous work load I'll have. I know for a fact that in-college students have a harder time finding scholarships. When you're a senior in high school people are so willing to give you the money to pay for it. And by "it", they mean the first year, after that you're on your own.

I know I'm not the only one in this boat, and I'm not complaining. I guess it just hasn't hit me yet.

My walls are looking rather blank, even though I haven't taken all of my posters and such off them yet. I think if I were to take all of them off right now I'd have a hard time sleeping without having Harry Potter staring down on me:

Birthday party to go to tomorrow. But still some more packing to do.

Bless your face. Peace off.